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Growing up

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The windows of the taxi I'm in are misty and I feel like drawing shapes on them. There's a bit of excitement inside me that comes with the idea. But I'm in a taxi with 12 other people who would look at me weird if I did. At least in my head I think they would. I don't think I want to find out yet. But anywho, this got me thinking... What does growing up actually mean? Yes, I understand independence, working, babies but why does our way of thinking, feeling and doing things change too? I get that the situations we go through are influential but why can't we keep our child self? Why do we have things that only kids do that parents shouldn't? Who came up with that rule? Or are we too deep in the "what will people say" hole?  Maybe that's why we are so depressed and sad. We bury all the things that make us happy deep within us because "it's how it should be".  And so I'm challenging myself. Why not? I have a huge...
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Fighting for attention

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For people who spend a lot of time alone like me, paying attention to small details is almost always a given. Our thoughts are always occupying our minds, going through every word of a text, analyzing and overthinking it. That is what happened to me with my friend earlier. Attention from my friends is a hard thing to get. I'm a person who listen more than they talk so I would expect that they would lend me an ear for a second however that is not the case. Our friends use the time that they are silent and you're talking as a break to check their phones. It is something I've noticed, I would tell my friend something today and the next day she will come with the news saying she just heard of it from someone else. There are also times when I would stop talking because I felt like I was talking to myself and lo and behold, they would start a whole different topic when they notice no one is talking. This might seem light to them, something to laugh over or give the "...
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